I Never Did Like This Damn Wind

There's a pretty good chance we will wake up in OZ tomorrow. I cannot sleep in this kind of freaky wind storm. It is truely terrifying for me. Either the roof is going to fly off or that giant tree will be in bed with Joe and I. Either way, not a good thing. Everything was quiet and nice and then blam. I made Madisons Tinkerbell dress tonight. It came out so cute. I had some little stars I sewed on around the neck. I am going to make little capris for both girls tomorrow. I have gone mad buying material. Next week when we get paid I have so many cute buttons I am going to add to my collection. The little girls love them. I spent all day at grandsons soccer games. Except for the part I was at the church helping with the mens day. Lots of food going on. Think I will post my pics and hide under the covers. I am hearing things blow by. crap!

A Lighter Note

I need to end my day in a happier mood. I am posting pictures that I should have put up here weeks ago. Mostly of my grandkids. Thats my life pretty much. We have 6 grandsons and 2 granddaughters. I love them more than I can put into words. here is a jumble of stuff. gages first dentist visit last week. Jaylons birthday. His actual birthday was at Disneyland but we had another here at home so all the cousins could be together. My son Billy coaches soccer and basketball. He has become the kid magnet. I am so proud of him. He puts every minute of his time into his family. I think I should add that he can do that because he has a wife who makes it all possible. She is full time in college and keeps the house and kids all clean and fed. I feel so blessed that my son has her. They have been together since he was about 15 yrs old. My gosh, I didn't realize how many years that was till now.

When I Was Young

Yesterday would have been the 36th birthday of the baby boy of Jody and I. It seems like a million years ago. Jody called me last night as he has every year since. I don't know why. We were very young at the time and we have remained as close as brother and sister ever since. He and his family visit about once a year.He has a daughter the same age as Cady and they feel they are sisters in some way. Yesterday my brother stopped in for a short visit and to drop off a box of pictures he got from our step mom. I was very happy and surprised at what I found. Pictures I had never seen of my brothers and I and pictures of me . There are not very many pics of me in my late teens as I have always been the taker of pictures and was never really in any. Seems like I have pretty much stayed with that same look all through the years. Long hair and jeans. Shirts made of tapestry material. My kids have joked about my not changing with the times and I guess they are right. I am comfortable being me. I am pretty sure I won't be a changin any time soon. The camping pic is Jody and I at Big Sur. The picture of Jody and I dressed up is at his wedding. The flower field is in Lompoc. I don't know why but these pics make me kinda sad.

Pansies In The Toilet

Today is payday. Bill day. Yuck. But before I know just how broke we are going to be for the next 2 weeks I am going to buy me some pansies for my toilet on my front porch. I need to re-paint my potty this year. Last year it was kind of southwest looking. Living in the southwest I think I will go for a different look. I don't really care. Just so long as it is colorful.

A Sweet Time

I love days where I am alone to clean and sew and do things around the house. I am not one to want to be away from home much. I love home. It is where I am most happy. Hanging new things. Pictures or old doilies and dish towels. Old things say home to my heart. I love to picture all the hands an old doily passed through on its way to me. Our bed is over 125 yrs old. It belonged to Joes grandparents. I often wonder about all the women who held tight to the iron headboard while giving birth to one of Joes distant cousins. I have always loved old things. A new couch that looks old is about as close as I come to liking modern things in my home. I guess home means something different to everyone. These pictures are sort of a mish mosh of old things that I like.

Enough and Thankful For It

We have been struggling for months. Joe takes extra work to make ends meet. I will say that not in a while have I rolled pennies for toilet paper. I still buy the odd stupid thing. Like a thing that we cannot eat that costs too much but hey, being broke gets old really fast. I spent 8.00 on dish soap from a store called Cricklewoods. It smells so wonderfukl that I actually look forward to doing dishes. It smells of rose and pomegranate with a hint of jasmine. I felt guilty for buying it. But I feel happy when I use it. So you see, we are not that bad off. I need to be more thankful and remember what poor really is. It is not us. We may not have alot but we are truely blessed to have enough. I have a few health issues but considering all things I am okay. So God, thank you. I AM BLESSED

They're Baack

Yesterday as I was scooping poop I heard that familiar buzzing humming sound. The hummers are back. After being dive bombed several times ,I understood that I was being threatened into filling my feeders and do it NOW. Okay, done. Tonight I was sitting in silence reading and heard the sound of Joes dog eating the hose from the hose holder. Okay, it has its own sound. I could just tell. When I went out the door to cuss at the dummy dog I almost walked right into a Hummer who seems to have become disoriented. Naturally I ran back for my camera. If it was a faster camera I would have better pictures. But I have what I have. I stood on the bench and was about one or two feet from him. He didn't care. He was eating bugs. Joe painted the porch last night and maybe it made for a better viewing of insects. I don't know. They never are out after sunset. I moved the feeder and almost before I had my hand off of it he landed and began sucking nectar. I hope he is gone in the morning and off with his buds.

No Way!

Yes way. I actually started and finished a project in under a month. I actually got Natalies little dress completed. I even did a bit of embroidery round the neck. It's been a while since I undertook a sewing project without the help and assistance of my friend Lynne. I made only 2 small errors that are not visible. I keep forgetting that I must wear my glasses now. I really cannot see. But anyhow, this was my trial dress. I bought some Disney Princess material and will begin the next dress tomorrow. I even found some princess buttons. We had a great week-end. Gage came Friday and went home today. I could not go with Joe to take him home as it broke my heart to see him go. Yes, he lives about 2 miles away and I am crazy. It's true. Grampa Joe plays drums in the band at church. Today Gage stood head bowed and waited until he heard the word Amen. He then ran past Pastor Rick up the stairs on stage and sat on the floor by Grampa while they played the last song.

This Weather Sucks,No It Blows

If you live in the Southwest then you know that there can be no change of season without ugly wind and dust storms. It's like a fight for one(season) to come and another to go. In the end it all works out but until it's over we all live in misery. My husband mentioned ions or something having to do with wind and my depression over it. It makes no difference why, it just is. So we wait. The poor kids are on Spring Break. When I was little it was called Easter vacation. I am waiting for my roof to blow off. Driving is a tad dangerous. I mean you can't see the road at times. I am going to sew and break out my old tablecloths and cheer up. I did not take this picture.

Plans. I Can't Do Plans

I had wanted to get the pattern cut out and get started on making Natalies dress. I ended up watching Jon And Kate +8 while cutting up strawberries. I did play with the camera long enough to take a picture of the pattern I didn't cut out. I was noticing how bare my table is and how much I dislike that. I collect old doilies and tablecloths. I don't put the tablecloths on the table because we use it so much someone may get food on it and I would go crazy on them. I have decided that I am using them and taking my chances. What is the point of having and not using things you love? If they lasted this long I am sure we will not hurt them. Besides, my table looks so naked.

and then

In a post today Jen said that she was not able to keep her little Jack with her in hospice. She is heartbroken. I think she just somehow holds it together for him. The pain the fear and all the rest. Nobody else mentioned it and so I think I will not either but I think that maybe it is best that Jack not be there at this time. Her pain is unbearable. She said they had to put her totally to sleep last night as nothing would stop the pain. Jack can come and spend the night now and then. And if they can get her feeling a bit better in time she may return home. I would never want to have to make that choice. I do worry that to see his mommy like that may be too much for a 6 yr old. I just pray that he is brought in often as she needs him so. What little boy does not need his mommy?

Prayers For Jenn, please

Before anything else might I please ask that you be praying for dear sweet Jen. She has now gone into hospice.She has taken her little son Jack with her. He is 6 yrs old. This is a much better situation for them both. Her pain has now become to great for her to control at home.Maybe I can find out how to put a link on here. Her blog is called THE COMFY PLACE. If you read her words you will see what I mean about her sweet heart. You can go to :Divinemojo.com and learn more about Jen and an ebay auction to raise funds for her. Thank you my friends.

Finding My Place And Feeling Some Peace

After spending my first bit of time on here without the worry or anticipation of anyone needing me for anything, I feel a wonderful bit of peace. I have actually read bits and pieces from blogs that are new to me. And of course my old favorites. I cannot tell you how much I enjoy visiting with all of you. Looking into your kitchens or livingrooms. I love to see how you live. I love to see youre kids and grandkids. I love to see your special handwork. I am very much drawn to quilters and knitters. Women who have a garden or live in cabins in the woods. You are homeschoolers and sunday school teachers. You are women who are amazingly organized and seem to get so much done(Molly,lost a sock)in a day. Women who don't really know me(Molly ans Gene) but send me a sweet note asking if all is well and checking in. Biddie you have adopted my grandson and send him sweet surprises and he loves your books. He loves to hear about how far away you live and trys so hard to understand what Canada is. There are women who I read each day but I leave no comment yet. But your stories inspire me to get moving and shut up the whining. All of you make me laugh and make me think. Soule Mama is one of my new favorites. Thank you Molly for having her on your blogroll. She inspired me to get back to handwork. I just found out that in my town you cannot buy any embroidery floss. It's been discontinued. HUH? I cleaned my room and found my hoops and enough floss to do me for awhile. These are the things that make me happy. To be creative. It's weird to me that something like this can bring so much joy back into my life. I am so blessed to have all of you touch my life. You really have made my life better. In my teen years I learned the hard way that I was more comfortable hanging out with the guys. I always had my old friends and along the way I have made some close friends with some women. But now as I am getting older( how can that be?) I have found a true comfort and feeling of belonging with many women. Many here on the internet. Most I will never even share a cup of coffee with. But nonetheless, they are my friends. You are dear to me. I truely care for each and every one of you.

It's Like Taking A Poop

Bitching . It's like a purging poop. I feel better now after my tittiebaby post last night. Ready to go out there and get moving. Gotta clean my jeep real good. Joey got their vehicle nice and sparkly clean. Now baby is comg home in the Grannymobile. Toys and bottles of water everyplace.I never leave the house w/out my water. I thought today was Friday. Nope, I better wake up before I drive. I am off to clean and fetch us home a baby.

I AM THE WALKING DEAD

Well I would be of I could walk. I have officially pooped out. I feel like I am in a half awake half asleep dream. No, nightmare. I have been on my feet since before sun up today. Went to sleep at some crazy time last night. During the day I am chasing a 3 year old and cooking and cleaning and hanging the laundry and then dragging it back in and folding and putting it all away.I love it when I find that Cady has been to busy(um, lazy) to put her things away so she throws them back into the laundry. She can't even be bothered to unfold them. Geez. Picking up Jessie from the hospital tomorrow and then bringing her some lunch. I got a few of us together and we are making dinner for Jessie and Joey for the first 3 days home. That was the best gift I was ever given. My night is Saturday as I will still be dead tomorrow. After I drop Jessie and baby off Heather said she would take Gage for 3 hrs. Cuz hello, I have had him for 3 or 4 days and nights. I cannot remember. I know I need some sleep. When I find myself alone tomorrow I am turning off all phones. I don't care who it is. I am taking a break from everyone. I did this to myself. Nobody forced it upon me. I need to stop being so available and stop worrying about everyone and their lives. They are grown . I guess I have a case of empty nest. Even though it's not empty yet. Big cry baby.

Baby Brother

I have to run but I gotta put at least one picture of the new kid in town up here. I will come home and give him a proper post. Well, the best I can do anyhow. His mommy did about the best birthing I have ever seen. Really, If you made a short film on how to do it, this is it. She was totally in control and folks, she did it with no pain meds. At the last, like the last 12 minutes they gave her some staydol(spelling?) but that was it. Nobody does that anymore and even I think I may have ended up begging for anything to make it stop. I was always big on doing it all natural. It is best but it's hard knowing you don't have to take all that pain. Okay, I need to shut up and roll out of here.

Today

Today this small boy became a brother. He knew it was going to happen. He has waited for months and months. He has talked about his baby sister whom he named Honey everyday. Until he was told Honey was a boy. Okay, a brother is good too. He has been at our house since early Monday morning. Waiting with Grampa Joe. When his brother finally came tonight at 6:28 I called him and let him hear the first cries. He was thrilled to pieces. He prayed over the phone today with me. He prayed for his brother to hurry up. Gage is a boy who likes to pray. Finally Grampa Joe and Gage got to the hospital and Gage looked a bit confused. Excited but not real sure of things. Maybe he thought his brother was going to come out 2 yrs old and ready to play ball and chase Buddy his dog. Maybe he realized that he was not the only kiddo in the house anymore. He seemed to just want Grampa Joe. His mama had to ask him for a hug and he looked for a second like he may not give her one. My heart was breaking. He was happy to get up in the chair with daddy and cousin Ronny and hold baby Jody. I got everyone to move on out so mom could nurse the baby and she and Joey could be alone and take it all in. On the way home I talked with Joe about how Gage had acted. Thats when he told me about the hundred things they had done all day and Gage had not ever taken a nap. He fed him an odd assortment of things and also his hayfever was in full bloom. He fell asleep on the way home but woke up for a bath and dinner. He is now passed out in our bed. I think when he wakes up tomorrow things will look alot better and everyone will live happily ever after.

Still Waiting

On my way to hospital. baby is really in no hurry. Jessie is at 4 and has been since last night. Hoping they will break her water soon and get things going. Shes worn out.Will be back with pictures soon I hope. Keep them in your prayers please.