THE POOR LITTLE BLOG THAT DIED OF NEGLECT
How have I let this happen? I have gone so long I just don't feel like bothering. Well that's a lie, I'm here aren't I? But still. It is freezing in my room and so I never want to blog. I do keep up with everyone else though. I never even posted many Christmas pictures. Silly since everything I take is for the blog. Forced Cady to go to the movies with us last night and we saw "Juno". Not Joes first choce but it was my turn. Loved it. Cady loved it too. Great soundtrack too. In fact the soundtrack made it the great little film it was.For me it did anyhow. Half way home after the movie Joes fireman pager went off. After almost killing his family to go help another, we finally got to the firehouse. He jumped in a car with someone else who was tool late to leave on the truck. Cady and I came home and hung out for a while and watched "The Illusionist". Pretty good. I liked that one too. Joe didn't get in till 4:am. He's still asleep. Big trailor fire. Lost one pet but everyone else got out.
Been thinking about blogging about my son Joey. He is making my life suck again and I just feel so bad that I don't want to have to hear his name even. So thats a good reason not to blog about him. He is Gages dad. The worst thing is that he and I have this very close thing. I have been through hell with him. He and wife Jessie are going to have a new baby in 10 weeks. He just isn't happy right now. he wants to be freer. Ya know, like hang out with his friends and go to bars and casinos and maybe go to Vegas. The occasional other woman is okay with him too. Ya know, he needs to be happy. He has already put this entire family through hell and now hes doing it to his own little family. It breaks my heart to see Jessie cry and be treated like trash. He has no problem fighting and saying terrible things in front of Gage. Gage stayed with us Thursday night. I need a break but not at that cost. I wish she could leave him. They just bought a new house 3 months ago. Bad timing. I don't sleep well. I can think of nothing but Gage and Jessie. Well, another phone call and Moms back on duty. Pray for my son. I want to hurt him. I'm giving him to God to deal with. It worked before.
Been thinking about blogging about my son Joey. He is making my life suck again and I just feel so bad that I don't want to have to hear his name even. So thats a good reason not to blog about him. He is Gages dad. The worst thing is that he and I have this very close thing. I have been through hell with him. He and wife Jessie are going to have a new baby in 10 weeks. He just isn't happy right now. he wants to be freer. Ya know, like hang out with his friends and go to bars and casinos and maybe go to Vegas. The occasional other woman is okay with him too. Ya know, he needs to be happy. He has already put this entire family through hell and now hes doing it to his own little family. It breaks my heart to see Jessie cry and be treated like trash. He has no problem fighting and saying terrible things in front of Gage. Gage stayed with us Thursday night. I need a break but not at that cost. I wish she could leave him. They just bought a new house 3 months ago. Bad timing. I don't sleep well. I can think of nothing but Gage and Jessie. Well, another phone call and Moms back on duty. Pray for my son. I want to hurt him. I'm giving him to God to deal with. It worked before.
posted by debi | 8:51 AM
5 Comments:
They look like such a happy family in that photo. You can't even tell that she is expecting.
I will pray. I wish that I could do more. What is there to do? I'm sure that you muct be at your wits end. I hope that he smartens up and sees that he has SO much with his wife and son, and a new one on the way.
I haven't been blogging much, either. There is alot going on in my head (yeah, right) but I just can't get it OUT of my head. Commenting seems like so much work some days.
I'm glad to see you back, though. Love the photos, too. Everyone looks happy, beautiful.
Glad that Joe made it home in one piece, too. :)
Thanks Biddie, This pic is a year old thats why she looks so thin. Today is way done and Joey actually was very nice. Still, lots of things have to change. Mostly I really need to be able to let others business be their own and not mine.I am his mom and its just like when your 4 yr old hits someone else, you feel like you need to make them behave and say they are sorry.Oh I am very sure the day will come when he is very very sorry. It sounds untrue but he loves her in his own selfish way and cant even sleep away from her. Whats up with that? I say the whole damn family needs therapy.Me first!!
LOL. I hear you when it comes to families and therapy!
You know, my x MIL feels the same way about her son. Not that I was blameless in the dissolution of my marriage, but he cheated and was just plain awful.
She is not responsible for her sons actions anymore than you are. (But you know that) You are a great,loving mom and Grandma.
My x mil is one of my dearest friends. Probably because she is alot like you :)
I am sorry to hear about the struggles of Joey and his family. I guess that God isn't done with him yet so the prayers should help. Being a parent is tough sometimes even when the children are grown (maybe even tougher then.)
I've been thinking a lot about this post since I first read it. There have been many times over the years with my own son when I just had to give him over to God. There's only so much you can do.
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