Make It Stop!

After going one month off my hormone pills I am THRILLED to say that I am back on them as of 4PM today. Just to help it along I just took 1 more. I feel like I am GOING OUT OF MY FREAKIN MIND!!!!! How can other women do it? Do what? Hmm, go without sleeping more than 15 minutes at a time , having hotflashes. Oh I don't mean your momas hotflashes. I mean hotflashes from Satan himself. I find myself jumping out of the bed all night long and being glad for a few minutes that our house is somewhere aound 38-50 degrees depending. But then the hotflash goes away and there I am all sweaty and frozen. Joe loves it too. Because I get no real sleep at night I am like a zombie all day. I catch myself nodding out with Gage here. I make sure I am totally uncomfortable so I never go into a deep sleep. But it's not like I can stay awake all day. Thank goodness he's 3 and he stays right there with me. Plus, it's too cold to venture out of the living room. Today I told him a story while I sorta dozed. I am getting good at talking to him and still resting.Usually he takes a nap but not today. Here comes another one. Truly, I would rather give birth than have hotflashes. In a few days there should be enough hormones in me to let me sleep all night except when I get up to pee cuz I also have high blood pressure and the meds make a person run to the potty ever hr but that aint nothin. My sweet Moma died when she was 1 year younger than I am now and she never got to warn me about this. NObody told me how awful it would be. Okay, compared to lots of things I guess it's not that bad. At least I am for the most part healthy. In fact now that I think of it I am very blessed, and in the words of I think it was Roseanne Roseanna Danna "Never Mind". And by the way. My Moms birthday was Sunday. I'll never stop missing her. Never. PS, added a family pic from when I was a little girl. Thats my Mom in the middle.