and they all go marching down to the ground to get out of the rain

it is not supposed to make any sense what so ever. my day has been kinda sorta awful and thats what came to my mind when i had to pick a subject. my old friend (since the mid 60's) is very ill. his sister sent me a note telling me he was airlifted to lubbock, texas from carlsbad new mexico.they found a tumor on his heart 2 days ago. he is such an amazing man i cannot do him justice but i shall try. naw, maybe i will do that later. i tend to go on and on about things. if the tumor is cancerous it is going to be a very bad thing.please pray with me that it is not. he is a very healthy man. he rides his bike from carlsbad over the mts to see us all. thats a few hrs by car. his moma and other family live here. i had to call my ex and tell him last night,. he had a hard time with it as i knew he would. all my kids are a mess over this. we love him so much. he has always been "Unca Chuck". he is an artist, he teaches martial arts. he is a massage therapist.he is a photographer too. he is excellent at all these things but mostly it is his kindness and sweet spirit that we love. he was born in Japan. he is 60 yrs old. his real name is asada kazu-o. his mom told him and his sister to pick american names when they came to the states. his mom had to put him and his sister mariko in a catholic orphanage for several years in japan as she became a widow and could not feed her children. she would do laundry for people to earn a few pennies. she washed the clothes in ice cold streams and her hands would bleed from being frozen. the nuns were very mean to Chuck and he was so happy to reunite with his moma and sister. my kids believed until they were grown that he was a real "unca". but they did wonder why he looked oriental and they did not. i am totally afraid that we may lose him and how can we make it without him in our lives? his little moma is about 90 yrs old. she buried one child already. i pray she does not out live another. as a christian i am totally disappointed in my instant lack of faith. how can i know that God is God and believe it with my whole heart and then when things get scarey i think maybe God cannot heal Chuck. maybe i am afraid he has a plan that doesnt involve a healing. i do know Chuck is a believer and he is going to be in heaven waiting on the rest of us. if he should go first that is.oh, i see i did not mention that mariko died of cancer some years ago. just about 5 weeks before her wedding she was found to have stomach cancer. she was given 6 months but lived about 5 or 6 years. most of those years were very good too. heather and billy were in that wedding and it was so hard to see her come down the isle in the church on base she was so happy so beautiful and she was dieing. i remember watching Chuck watch her and see him make a fist and gently touch it to his heart. on the phone with jody now. jody lives in lubbock and is going to see Chuck in the morning. Chuck will be so surprised. please pray. thank you for being my friends. heres a pic of Chuck